Time - something we value but usually have little of - or so it seems.
It is hard to not want something to happen right now. And that is the same for changing the areas of our lives where we want more abundance or positive outcomes.
As I began down this path I began to read more articles and books about the power of positive thinking, law of abundance, manifesting, etc. Some made it sound like all you had to do was form the image in your mind and poof - there it was.
That isn't the case. You can sit there imagining a million dollars dropping into your lap all you want and it just isn't going to happen. I have read all these articles and then read comments by folks that have spent a fortune on these self-help manifesting programs without achieving anything, So what is wrong?
I found what is true for me all comes down to my outlook. Since my husband crossed over things made some pretty dramatic changes. Finances changed dramatically, chores he did are now mine plus my chores and there is the empty spot next to you.
As time passes the empty spot next to me is still there but my heart feels joy - not in my loss but in the time I had with him. The chores are still there but some get done and some may never get done - it depends on my time and how I want to spend it. Finances are still there but as I map out areas I see the light at the end of the tunnel and thank Spirit it isn't a train. I don't stress.
I find a way to see positive in all areas of my life now. What was a chore to find 5 things a day is now hundreds of things - sometimes in an hour.
And as I find ways to see positive I am encountering more positive.
It all comes down to time and baby steps. Take the time.
Monday, June 27, 2016
Thursday, June 23, 2016
Finding my path
When my husband began his new journey I lost my best friend. We could spend hours on road trips talking about life and anything else. Thirty seven years of talking and sharing - gone. What to do? How do I find my way. So many things to do. The first month was busy with dealing with insurance, Social Security, VA and all the many things a surviving spouse must go through. It can be overwhelming at times. And yet there was a certain peace that seemed to prevail in my spirit. Granted, talking to our cats wasn't the same as talking to Bob but at least they don't argue.
Friends find it hard to reach out to a grieving spouse. What to say? How to act? Should we invite them to go to dinner with several couples? So my advice - don't say anything - just give them a meaningful hug. Act natural - we are dealing with enough unnatural in our lives at the time. And yes - ask us to dinner - if we are up to socializing we will say yes - otherwise we will take a rain check. It is hard enough to adapt to single life again without feeling ostracized by those you have called friend . (And watch out for those taxes - ouch).
As the weeks passed I felt more and more at peace. Was grief waiting to sneak up and knock me down? And then I began to realize that my spirit was finding the positive. Bob and I will always be together. That is just the way it is. I hear his voice at times when I need it the most. But in those first few weeks I hadn't reached that realization. Then things began to pop up. Synchronicity was at work.
First an article about the power of positive thinking. Uh huh - where was the positive. Financial worries, loss of companionship and numerous other things were all clamoring with doom and gloom. But that small sense of peace kept leading me to more articles of the same. So finally - what the heck - I will try it.
Small steps - find 5 things each day that I was grateful for and 5 things that were positive that day. A beautiful sunrise, a funny joke, a tasty brownie. Each day a new set of things. And then one day I began to notice there were way more things than 5 of each.
And I had found the path.
Friends find it hard to reach out to a grieving spouse. What to say? How to act? Should we invite them to go to dinner with several couples? So my advice - don't say anything - just give them a meaningful hug. Act natural - we are dealing with enough unnatural in our lives at the time. And yes - ask us to dinner - if we are up to socializing we will say yes - otherwise we will take a rain check. It is hard enough to adapt to single life again without feeling ostracized by those you have called friend . (And watch out for those taxes - ouch).
As the weeks passed I felt more and more at peace. Was grief waiting to sneak up and knock me down? And then I began to realize that my spirit was finding the positive. Bob and I will always be together. That is just the way it is. I hear his voice at times when I need it the most. But in those first few weeks I hadn't reached that realization. Then things began to pop up. Synchronicity was at work.
First an article about the power of positive thinking. Uh huh - where was the positive. Financial worries, loss of companionship and numerous other things were all clamoring with doom and gloom. But that small sense of peace kept leading me to more articles of the same. So finally - what the heck - I will try it.
Small steps - find 5 things each day that I was grateful for and 5 things that were positive that day. A beautiful sunrise, a funny joke, a tasty brownie. Each day a new set of things. And then one day I began to notice there were way more things than 5 of each.
And I had found the path.
Wednesday, June 22, 2016
A journey
A positive universe. Sounds like an oxymoron.
Back in early 2013 nothing in my universe was positive. My husband of 37 years was hospitalized. He was now blind and couldn't walk. Life was turned upside down. I was juggling a job, a ranch and making a 6 hour round trip to spend time with him weekly. Of course everything that could break - broke. I got stuck in my driveway so many times that winter due to heavy snow that one night coming home I set there and cried for half an hour before trudging up to the house. I had 3 llamas killed by wolves - which according to Fish and Game don't live in Colorado. Sorry I saw them - you didn't. Each step was a chore.
Then one night I had woke up to a very loud voice telling me to go to Sedona. Scared the you know what out of me. Did I hear a voice - lay quietly and listen to house sounds. Nothing. Must have been dreaming. Why in heavens name would I go to some place named Sedona. Anyway where the heck was Sedona?
The next day I posted it to Facebook and had several friends begin to tell me all the "whys" of going to Sedona and where it was located at. Yeah, but I can't get the time away or spend the money. A friend say hey "I'll go with you. And I have a Prius hybrid. Oh, and by the way a neighbor said we can stay in her winter home down there."
So in July off we went for a whirlwind trip. A day down and back and two days to sight see. But I was still trying to figure out why.
The first night down there once again I am awakened by a voice saying to find a piece of jewelry with lapis and amethyst. Not funny. But once again my friend was saying we can hike in the early morning and then shop during the heat of the day. So that was what we did.
While hiking we stopped and were talking with a women who had been advised by her Oracle cards to hike that trail that day. So my question to her - "what the heck are oracle cards?" And so she explains and tells me I should get a deck. That afternoon I bought my first deck.
By the end of the second day no luck on the jewelry thing. I was beginning to think it had to be something that I ate.
The next day we took a different road out of Sedona. We stopped at a small rest area so my friend could walk her dog and there was an Indian market set up at one end. So we looked around and I asked a few of the vendors about lapis/amethyst jewelry. No one had anything. As we are walking back to the car an older Indian gentleman comes running up to me asking if I was the one looking for the lapis/amethyst jewelry. I said I was and he said he had a ring. As we walked back he was telling me how he had just gotten there. Usually he didn't come to this venue until August but something had been telling him to go in July and to take this specific ring. A beautiful handcrafted silver ring with lapis and amethyst. I looked at it and knew it was what I was looking for. But could I afford it. When he told me he would make me a deal since he felt something drew us together I wasn't sure I could even afford a deal for such a beautiful piece. And then he told me what he would take for it. It was lower than my wildest dream.
My husband began his new journey a month and a half later. And thus began my journey in search of a positive universe.
Back in early 2013 nothing in my universe was positive. My husband of 37 years was hospitalized. He was now blind and couldn't walk. Life was turned upside down. I was juggling a job, a ranch and making a 6 hour round trip to spend time with him weekly. Of course everything that could break - broke. I got stuck in my driveway so many times that winter due to heavy snow that one night coming home I set there and cried for half an hour before trudging up to the house. I had 3 llamas killed by wolves - which according to Fish and Game don't live in Colorado. Sorry I saw them - you didn't. Each step was a chore.
Then one night I had woke up to a very loud voice telling me to go to Sedona. Scared the you know what out of me. Did I hear a voice - lay quietly and listen to house sounds. Nothing. Must have been dreaming. Why in heavens name would I go to some place named Sedona. Anyway where the heck was Sedona?
The next day I posted it to Facebook and had several friends begin to tell me all the "whys" of going to Sedona and where it was located at. Yeah, but I can't get the time away or spend the money. A friend say hey "I'll go with you. And I have a Prius hybrid. Oh, and by the way a neighbor said we can stay in her winter home down there."
So in July off we went for a whirlwind trip. A day down and back and two days to sight see. But I was still trying to figure out why.
The first night down there once again I am awakened by a voice saying to find a piece of jewelry with lapis and amethyst. Not funny. But once again my friend was saying we can hike in the early morning and then shop during the heat of the day. So that was what we did.
While hiking we stopped and were talking with a women who had been advised by her Oracle cards to hike that trail that day. So my question to her - "what the heck are oracle cards?" And so she explains and tells me I should get a deck. That afternoon I bought my first deck.
By the end of the second day no luck on the jewelry thing. I was beginning to think it had to be something that I ate.
The next day we took a different road out of Sedona. We stopped at a small rest area so my friend could walk her dog and there was an Indian market set up at one end. So we looked around and I asked a few of the vendors about lapis/amethyst jewelry. No one had anything. As we are walking back to the car an older Indian gentleman comes running up to me asking if I was the one looking for the lapis/amethyst jewelry. I said I was and he said he had a ring. As we walked back he was telling me how he had just gotten there. Usually he didn't come to this venue until August but something had been telling him to go in July and to take this specific ring. A beautiful handcrafted silver ring with lapis and amethyst. I looked at it and knew it was what I was looking for. But could I afford it. When he told me he would make me a deal since he felt something drew us together I wasn't sure I could even afford a deal for such a beautiful piece. And then he told me what he would take for it. It was lower than my wildest dream.
My husband began his new journey a month and a half later. And thus began my journey in search of a positive universe.
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